Single vs. Relationship

Ok so I decided something last week. I don't care about having a boyfriend. I used to care a lot. I would always sit around with my friends going "Why don't I have a boyfriend?? Why don't guys like me? I am fun! If THAT chick has a boyfriend why dont I?" etc etc. It was such a downer. At the end of the conversation all we would feel is completely depressed and pathetic. And for what?

So for some mysterious reason, I suddenly realized that I just don't care anymore. I am not saying that I don't still have crushes on guys (and hello... I definitely do, who can resist a sweetheart with messy hair? lol) but I AM saying that I am NOT focused on labeling myself as "single" or "in a relationship." I think it is so much more important for me to be focused on life and the everyday experiences that I have, rather than sitting around wondering about what I do not have.

I get so tired of hearing so many girls talk about their boyfriends 24/7, like they have no life outside of him. I think that no matter how serious a relationship a couple has, each person still has to have individual experiences apart from each other. Even when people are married and they "become one," I think it's still healthy to make sure that each person has an identity apart from their spouse. I mean it's wonderful to be "Peter's wife," but if that was the only thing people knew me as I would eventually start feeling invisible.

But back to being single. I've decided it's liberating. All this time I felt as if I was in a box labeled "single." When in reality, I've been standing with freedom outside the box that's labeled "relationship." Since I am single, I can find out what I want for my life... where I want to go, who I want to be. I don't have to worry about pleasing someone else, or comprising my dreams for them. I am free to be me. One day I might meet someone who I know I want to make comprises for, but for today I am going to rejoice in the fact that I am free and young and full of dreams.